You made the CHOICE to adjust everything on the weekend of Aug. 20, 2009 for somebody you knew had very little interest in being in the marriage. Yet somehow you are angry at her about the choice you made? You can hold on to that anger OR examine yourself. Why do you keep making the choice to do things for somebody that has no desire to be with you? In a way it almost sounds like a control thing or perhaps more about ego. It also seems like you keep having expectations (ex: your W turning a corner after a car ride with the MOH). So really, eliminate expectations and make different choices. Easier said than done of course but it really *does* all come back to you.
Your W is selfish. ALL WAS are selfish. ALL WAS know that their LBS will bend over backwards to do things for them. They will take, take and take some more and when their servant finally says no more they will find a way to guilt you into remaining their servant.
What gets you so worked up every weekend? The fact that you have no control over what your W does? The idea of a very bruised ego because she doesn't want you? I'm really just trying to understand!
