Still, sorry to hear about this. But can I say that your W seems still "care" but is not changing? Can I tell you a secret? Well, it's not a secret. It's been said many times - let her go. Do the things you need to do for YOU and YOU alone. Really. She is treating you like dirt and doing things to hurt you. How do I know? BTDT and I have a t-shirt to prove it
LET HER GO. Emotionally first before you get torn to pieces. Let her miss you. Let her work herself out. She may not, but don't let her tear you apart AND leave you. That's not good for you nor the kids.
Self-esteem. What can you do to get it back? What can you do to regain your balance? Those are questions you need to ask and right now. Get those in order and then figure out what else is going on. Break off contact unless ABSOLUTELY necessary. Show her that you are leaving. That you are you and will continue to be the strong man you have always been.
That's working on you. Rebuilding after the IED that went off near you. Get whole. Get strong. Then see what you need and want to do. There's time for that.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."