I pulled out the diary from last summer. On Aug. 20 something happened, for some reason I don't write why, but I changed up my entire schedule to bail STBXW out of some scheduling conflict.
"Adjusted everything for a person who says she doesn't love me. A person who treats each kind act as further proof that I can't get over her."
"I am so caught in neverland" I wrote. At least that part is ending. It'll be a while still though. A letter from my L was waiting for me in the mailbox. A conference is set for Oct. 19, which my L hopes will just be a formality to finalize things. Another two months?
Yes, CG, this is the only Aug. 20-22 weekend I'll have and it's the end of the only summer I'll have with them as 8 and 11 year olds. It's been -- all things considered -- a good summer.
I will be interested to hear about D8 and D11's thoughts on it years from now. I've done the best I've can.
What does detachment look like to me? I read somewhere true detachment is when I not only no longer wish her to suffer, I actually wish her to do well.
That's going to be a long time. Right now, I wish for detachment to be me not getting so worked up every weekend.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
