"I told her I feel this huge pain inside me that I just don't think others can understand."

You know, I think we really do understand. I think maybe you don't think we do because you've been avoiding looking at it yourself...

And, this is probably the most honest I've ever see you be. You are doing better than you see right now. Really, really.

So sorry about your Dad and I hope he is on the mend. Hugs.

Best,
Oldtimer