I've just come in from outside mowing and weed-eating. My friend found me a self-propelled push mower for $40.00 at a yard sale. Runs great. I need it to get to the places I can't get to on the tractor. I usually do a lot of thinking while on the tractor. I've been thinking of this upcoming trial date and what I should say. I know I need to follow my lawyer's lead. Just remain dark for the meantime.
I tell myself that it's stupid to think of it as losing him, I've already done that. It's up to him whether he decides to return or not. I've thought of all the nasty things OW has done behind his back to me. No point in telling him, he won't believe, or wouldn't care.
Trying not to fall in a pity party, but know that will not be difficult to do with nothing stronger than 7up in the house.
