I'm not happy with how things are now. I wasn't happy with how things were before, in the last several years. Not unhappy enough to leave, but I felt powerless to change things.
I'm happy with most things in my life except how I'm handling this situation. I'm in the best health I've ever been in, I have good friends who care about me, I have two daughters I love. My faith is becoming stronger every day. I'm reconnecting with a lot of hobbies and activities that I used to enjoy.
But with my W, it's all messed up. I would like to be a flirty, fun, active person WITH my wife, but I can't right now. The dancing was a perfect example; I think that would be really fun to do together. But that whole part of my life is in limbo, on hold. I can be fun, I can be flirty, but she really doesn't want to do anything with me other than family stuff with the girls.
As Gucci says, she wants to go. And is making it very clear that being with just me is not what she wants to do.
