I'm starting to think about if my W is the right person for me given she's done all she has to hurt me.
it is very painful to remain here day after day where I'm continually reminded that none of my needs are even close to being met.
Truth be told, I never really resented my W for what she did, but now I'm starting to.
I just feel so unloved and unappreciated.
Is it that I'm just coming out of my LBS fog that was making me "try" so hard I was blinded and forgot about myself, and when the fog lifted I realized there is nothinng for me?
Just as you start to detach and see the reality then she reeled you back in. You rescued her, she makes you feel needed. You filled the Daddy role for her and you. Nothing has changed.
You need to think and not be so feeling right now. It's how she plays you like a fiddle. I am not saying don't show compassion, empathy and don't love her. You need to be strong. She is going this use this episode to her advantage.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
