BA, you're right. I know. That would be logical.

But I'm thinking about something else right now: we get so mean and obsessed sometimes! At least I do.

Is Mr. A sitting around thinking about me and what a such-and-such I am but how he would still want to talk to me in a way the encourages our future togetherness?

I have no idea. Maybe he is. Probably he is NOT.

Anyway, I don't want to! It's BORING! And it makes me get sick of myself.

I have to figure out how to be a person who is not living in relation to Mr. A.