Thank you all. I'm kinda speechless.

I'm not panicking--I didn't even follow my usual advice to take an evening and wallow in embracing the suck. I just cannot go there, I have to be on my game. I even managed to put a positive spin on this for D14--somehow. Continuing to beat the bushes and send in multiple applications, and it's far too soon to hear anything back yet. I've also contacted my "peeps" to see if anyone knows of anything. so--I'm doing what I can. I did not go to work today, called in sick; I will go in tomorrow and try to do something to look busy but don't really know what that will be. If I can stand it at all, I will stick it out till the end of next week (last possible day is the 27th) so I have the largest possible paycheck; if it's just too stressful I will just quit early. lots to do before the benefits stop, making a list for that.

thank you all again for all of your support and prayers. you're keeping me from scraping the bottom.


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012