I hope that my post above doesn't convey the impression that I don't appreciate how raw and low you are feeling now because nothing could be further from the truth. I hope you find some time on vacation to do something enjoyable for yourself each day. You need to take good care of yourself and pursue activities that you enjoy. Make sure that you eat well and exercise. It will get better, Mystik. As CG says, you have to work at it but it will get better.
