Agreed, Pin and Faith -- friggin addictive comp games. Yeah, the guilt and self-anger for allowing ourselves to go down that road is a real bugaboo, ain't it??
I keep having to remind myself to use it as a motivation to improve and move forward and not to let it be a tool by which W can manipulate me or by which *I* beat myself up too much or demean myself. I think you have to forgive yourself before your W can forgive you.
Yes, ALLOWING myself to lose self-control was very disturbing. Even though I still become angry/uncomfortable at the thought of that memory, I have realized I can't change the past and I am taking steps to really begin figuring myself out. It's been alot easier to forgive myself knowing now that I'm preventing my future from being as messed up. Strongly suggest reading "Hold on to your N.U.T.s"; "No More Mr. Nice Guy"; and "Ways of The Superior Man". They have really helped me.
Originally Posted By: bustorama
How do I find y'all's threads? I've read some of each of y'all's but have trouble finding myself back to them. I'm gonna try to put this thread link in my sig after I post this.
You can click on our names and view posts. I haven't linked mine but my journaling post is titled Enlightening.
