The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Journaling:
Oh yeah. The money flew! But it was a lot of fun. We rode the rides until we were both sick

Update: STBX picked up the kids early on Monday without telling me. I had texted to ask about the evening arrangments and she informed me that she was picking up the kids right then and taking them to the dentist and ortho. WTF, right? So I responded and let her know that was great but that in the future to please let me know ahead of time (be kind and courteous) if you want same behavior. Her response? They will be at your house tomorrow for dinner.
I don't know about you, but I've played the respect game before. I know how it works. I work with it every day. So....

For right then I let it sink in. But it infuriated me. I'll admit that. The cheek to want to manipulate (my feelings) me and control things. Similar to her texting me she doesn't care who I do things with. Bah. STFU, OK? That would be better for all concerned. </rant>

But in the end, she started to "communicate" better about the kids yesterday letting me know things. I did text her later on Monday asking about the results of the appts. She called me and I later called her back (busy at work - couldn't answer the phone for her when she called.)

The annoyance is that she seems to be trying to control things. While she has backed off some of the entitlement behaviors for now(?) I still expect basic respect. Maybe I'm wrong about that. Maybe I should expect nothing except that would be less than I expect from people walking down the street much less the kids mother.

It occurred to me when I woke up this morning some of what I had been seeing. The cowardly bitch of a woman. (again, I'm ranting - anger comes and goes right?) She was angry and acting the fool towards me for that time to try and get me to be the one to leave and to divorce her. I honestly think she was too much of a coward to do otherwise. But that's also strange because the signals were so mixed.

Can you tell I also went to the counsellor the other day? So much to think through.....

Anyway, enough of that. Much more work to do and need sleep.

Peace,

AJ