Sweetie, you can feel like sh#t as long as you want. Me, I'd rather not. But, that's just me. Feel it, embrace it, get it out, let it wash over you and then move past it. Cause it you hold onto it, it weighs you down, it saps your energy, it makes you weak. I know of where I speak. I promise you.
Ok, listen, I know about the beating yourself up for the way you were in the past stuff. Ask Mach or Cat how freakin' long I did that to myself.
I would be lying if I said I never do anymore. But, here's the thing, I forgive myself. I do. I did the best I could with the knowledge and tools I had at the time. If I knew better, I would have done better. I know that for a fact. I never acted the way I did with the intention of hurting my h. I did it for a lot of reasons. Those arent important now. What is important is, I changed them. I used the knowledge to propel me forward. I am becoming the person I want to be.
My friend, forgive yourself. You were who you were. Hindsight is 20/20. You did the best you could at the time. Had you realized all this, you would have changed it.
The crime would be if you didnt look inside. If this happened and you stayed the same. But you didnt.
You cant change the past. You just cant. You can learn from it. You can remember it. But you cant change it.
So, did you take from it what you needed to?
Did you change the things that needed changing?
If you did, then, you must now look to the future.
Dont let what happened then stop your journey.
God, grant us the... Serenity to accept things we cannot change, Courage to change the things we can, and the Wisdom to know the difference Patience for the things that take time Appreciation for all that we have, and Tolerance for those with different struggles Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways, the Ability to feel your love for us and our love for each other and the Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless.
