The panicky feeling seems to have become more pronounced over time, either that or she was really good at hiding it early on. I'm not sure she's ever had a full orgasm. She says she's never MB'd, and I believe that. Lately, she hasn't been allowing me to touch her parts, instead she gives me a BJ and then gets up. If questioned about it, she'll say she was doing it for me and "why does it always have to be tit for tat". It is hard to find desire for someone when you know that they don't want it for themselves.
