I believe today is Rocked's 20th anniversary too. Have you checked her thread lately? She had a really good, wise post yesterday you might want to read about celebrating new beginnings. It's not what either of you wanted to be doing on this day, but... you're getting through it. Go read her thread if you haven't already and have some time today.
And if you're feeling better now, maybe reschedule the family dinner and celebrate how much the 3 of you love and are there for each other- this is a new anniversary of your slightly smaller, new, improved, intact family.
PS- stress can wreak havoc with your body- I'm experiencing similar stuff. Please take care of yourself as much as you can, eating well, getting sleep, swimming in your pool, etc.
thinking of you--
-A
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
