Eric, my sweet friend, Mach is right. It doesnt matter what I think. But why would you think for a minute that I would feel that way because I dont. I would hope that you know that I would never, ever judge anyone.
Look, most of your story, is my story.
Of course, you are sad. This is a very sad thing. And I know you are tired. I do.
You have some choices to make. Some tough ones. I wish I could tell you that it's going to be easy. I wish I could take away the pain.
But, you cant get around this. The only way to do it is through it. You have to dig deeper. Aint no other way.
So, decide that you are going to enter this next phase from a place of strength. You have to be there for your kids. Doesnt matter what YOU perceive their feelings to be. What matters is that you have to do the right thing for them. You are the adult.
I know that right now it seems like your world is falling apart. But I also know the depth and strength that lies within you. I know that you are a man of honor.
You have to do what you need to do to take care of your children and yourself. And remember, they are children. This is their mother, no matter what. Your job is to love them unconditonally in spite of their choices. You want to leave the door wide open and make sure never to make them feel badly for loving her.
Your wife, well, she has to walk her own journey.
You need to keep doing the work. Stop counting down the days. That serves no purpose.
This is a process, a journey that should never end.
We are here for you. You will get through this. You have more to learn, more to grow. You get to choose how you do it.
Come on, man. You can do this. One step in front of the other. I got your back. Get to gettin'.