Hi Cindy, I think your having a rough time right now, and it feels like things are not progressing to you. Oh boy, do I know that feeling.
Your H is hanging in there and you want more than that. I know the feeling. Things that he says sounds like he really does not care, but I don't think that's the case at all.
Things ARE progressing, it just feels like it's not sometimes and we get very frustrated with all this.
I lashed out at my H last night and I'm sure he is not very happy with me today, but I had pretty much reached the end of my rope with his nonchalant attitude and told him how I felt.
I'm certainly not saying that's what you should do. Anymore, I don't know what's right and what's not. I'm not even sure what works and what doesn't!
With us, it seems he needs this kind of just start from time to time and a hefty dose of reality. He's got his head stuck in the sand about alot of things and I have to lay in on the line from time to time.
Initially, he is upset with me, but it does seem to bring us closer for some strange reason.
That, and I am really getting so tired of his procrastination, so I told him I would not live like this forever, and that I NEED to be wanted and loved just as he NEEDED it when he had the A.
Cindy, this is undoubtably the hardest thing we'll ever have to go through. You've been so strong, and we can all see the positives that have been happening.
Stay with it girl, and keep giveing it your best shot.
We'll help each other through this limbo period, and come out on the other side. I hope today will be better! Rachael
