All my life I've based my own happiness on how happy I've made others. I know nothing about finding it within myself.
I have heard the saying "Fake it 'til you make it". There's a reason I didn't become an actress, I'm too genuine to fake things. If my heart's not really in what I'm doing, it's very obvious.
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