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[john28]

Last night wasn't so great.

After MC I felt bad that I hadn't told my W about my trip to TX that I cancelled. I was planning on bringing it up in MC, but we didn't get to my list. I wanted to find a way to tell her about it to begin to be honest with her about something that has been bothering me, so I just brought it up.

I told her that I had a business trip planned about 6 weeks ago to TX and I was trying to find a way to stay a couple extra days with my best friends out there, when an ex-gf of mine contacted me over FB to let me know that her marriage didn't work out and she was curious what I was up to, and when I was going to be in TX next to catch up on old times. Honestly, when I got the message, I thought this might be some sick joke that my W was playing on me to test me in our M since it was so rocky, so I didn't respond to it.

However, my thinking at the time was that if I did continue on the business trip, the temptation would be to great to meet up with her while I was there in TX. So - I cancelled the trip. I never even told my W about the trip because it was never set in stone and from the time I was thinking about going out there to the time ex-gf contacted me was about 1.5-2 weeks.

I apologized that I had not told her this sooner.

I went out to my shop to work on the lawnmower some and then came back in. She was angry at me. She said, "I don't appreciate being manipulated." Basically, she felt like I just told her this story to manipulate her into being jealous about my feelings at the time. I was upset because I had opened up to her about something that was bothering me, but she just turned it right back around at me and made me feel like crap for opening up to her and telling her about this. All in all, she felt that I purposefully told her this story to manipulate her feelings about me. I did not. I can't change her feelings I said, but I was disappointed that she thought that about me.

Whirlwind!