I struggle every other day just about with the thought that my h may not come back. We've been at this spot before...the only difference is is that he's in counseling, individual counseling to boot!
Like you I believed that my life would be over if my h goes through with the d. I sometimes still think that. But this feeling is not so overpowering since I have a life apart from my h now. That is what you need. I'm making friends, having fun, getting a lot of me time and I really enjoy it. I recommend you start right away...getting this life. Having a me focus will help you immensely in dealing with your h.
I can't say that I don't struggle with wanting to spy on my h...occassionally I still snoop but the need to do it no longer drives me every waking moment. This will happen for you too once you go out and start enjoying yourself.
it's like that Reba McEntire song "How was I to know"....in it a woman finds out how strong she really is when her h leaves, she amazes herself and finds that the world didn't stop turning because he left.
You can be this person! So what are you planning to do for New Year's Eve? Tell me your plans. Let's plan together so we can have something to look forward to beside wondering what our h's are doing.
