I totally agree with Babydoll... try not to think of the future Piano, take it one day at a time. We can never predict the future right anyway so why not spend the time thinking some nice thoughts!
Originally Posted By: Piano
That's why I am starting to doubt if I love him or if it's more that I don't love myself.
It could be that being denied what you wanted has intensified your feelings and made it seem more perfect than it actually was?
I'll write a few things that helped me most:
*whenever the thought of H creeps into my head -I tell myself to "STOP" sometimes out loud. -Start doing something-anything to switch my thought and mood (learning to control myself- a great skill to be gained here!)
*force myself to watch comedy (or SATC) -I was surprised to know that I can laugh even in dark moments
*start working on what I've always wanted to do, and imagine myself doing it successfully (anything to give you a nice feeling)
*hanging out with good friends- which you will be doing soon!
Easier said than done... quite difficult in the beginning but I guarantee they'll work if you stick to it.
