Getting over blaming myself has been the roughest spot in the road for me. I feel like God gave me a second chance after his mini-MLC 8 years ago, and I blew it.
I appear to the outside world to be self-confident and my usual smiling self, but all the self doubt and hurt is still deep inside me. It doesn't come out as often now, but is still there. I'm always aware of its presence.
It's like my head knows one thing and my heart another. Sometimes you've just got to decide which is best to listen to.
