Punkin, I have not caught up on your whole sitch, but I can see you are a strong woman.
While it may feel good to get stuff off your chest, often times the MLCer is not hearing it. You are just spinning your wheels.
Time is better spent on you. Find your center because when you do, you come closer to peace.
I think it is best that you pulled way back from your h. You need to work on finding out what makes you happy, what can you do to become the best punkin.
Your h journey is just that. His. Let him walk it.
And I hope that you continue to walk yours. I agree with my friend Eric. This is an extraordinary gift we have been given. An opportunity to become the people we were meant to be. And that is where our focus should lie.
