Journaling--Unfortunately, MIL's cancer has spread in her bones. She starts chemo Friday. I don't know much more because she just started wanting to talk to people this evening after finding the results out on monday. H talked to her for a bit and asked me to go see her. I'm going to barge in on them tomorrow with my little guy and try to hold it together and to rouse up her fighting spirit.
Google tells me this is likely very, very bad. I haven't sobbed so hard in years. Back is that split second when you wake up and all that is wrong hits you like a ton of bricks because you were able to forget while you slept. Only now it's not H having left me, it's this.
Today has been better and this isn't about me. It's time to buck up and find strength because positive attitudes can only help. Another good side to things with H and I being semi-reconciled is that I can be here for my ILs and not have to do it on the down-low as to not p1ss him off. I think things are also better between H and my MIL cause it was strained because she made it clear that she didn't like what he did to me. I'm grateful that none of that drama will distract any of us from doing all we can to support her.
Last edited by Freckle6; 08/19/1003:02 AM.
Me38,H:38,S:7 Married:6/99 Bomb:7/04 Sep.:5/05 D Filed:3/08;Final 1/10 Piecing:11/09 H moved back:09/10 Current thread: http://tiny.cc/htcty
Back is that split second when you wake up and all that is wrong hits you like a ton of bricks because you were able to forget while you slept. Only now it's not H having left me, it's this. 
