Mystik, this is where you need to stop the negative thoughts. I'm sure your C has discussed how and we've given you some strategies on your thread. GAL is one of those strategies. You might not feel like doing something for GAL, but you have to do it anyway. Eventually, you'll want to. You can't wallow in this anymore. It's hurting you and more importantly, your S.
I'm not saying this to hurt you. I'm saying it as a friend who has been exactly where you are...EXACTLY. You are waiting for your H to do something that he will not do. I cried to my C about wanting my H to at least try but he refused. She told me that I can't make him do anything and I have to let that go or I was going to drown in depression. I left really mad at her, but she was right. I had to let that go.
You H has proved time and time again he is not going to do what you want him to. For right now, you have to let that go. That doesn't mean he won't at some point in the future come back, but right now, he won't. You have to let him go to save yourself and your S now.
