He was a man, not a pet. It's not like you left the gate open, and he got out and got lost.
He made choices, and he could have chose not to get involved with somebody else (among other things) and leave his wife and child, but that was not what he chose. You can't control him.
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what makes me think I can be a good parent
You can be a good parent if you make that one of your future and present goals. It's your choice.
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I sucked as a wife?
Did you? I'm sure this is not all your fault. You didn't make your husband run off with another woman, for example.
Would you like to beat yourself up a little more? You are just tearing yourself down to no good end with this. Forgive yourself, feel what you need to feel, but then let it go and love life again. It's where you will wind up--one way or another--in the end anyway.
M-47,W-40,No kids D-filed 5/27/2010 Piecing - 10/21/2010 -=Soon to be banned=-