Still trying to find my way

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I honestly think he still does not grasp just how much I am hurting from his choices and actions. I want to tell him how sometimes it hurts to breathe because I hurt so much, that I walk around with a near constant pain in my chest from missing him so much.

No, he doesn't. Even if he had an inkling, he wouldn't care. I have to agree w/City Girl. Your H sounds like a spoiled teenager. And, like CG, I have to say, your H's responses to your e-mail sound very much like my own spoiled teenager H.

I know how much this hurts, but you have to just muscle thru it and keep going.

It hurts that I'm never going to be able to experience pregnancy or raising a child with him again. It kills me that he is giving that honor to someone else, not his wife. I want a second child so bad, have for years and he kept promising me one if I accomplished the goals he set. Well, I reached the goals he set but he never even tried to get me pregnant, just came up with some other goal for me to achieve.

Be thankful that you don't have another child w/H. He's not supporting DS, I can't imagine things would be better w/a 2nd.