Here's a story...of a very sad lady

[Dagny-2]

Wow, PDT, lot to digest here. This is a bit of a new road for me with the affair, I'm pretty sure last time it was an EA, this time, I believe PA. But could be wrong, could have been PA last time, but still don't think so. So I need to learn how to react to all of these emotions.

When I read the idea of "being his friend" it hit home with me. It is something I can do and I don't think that and "mamabear" are mutually exclusive. If I act as his friend I will bring an air of civility to the home and situation. Mamabear comes very natural to me and is always at the center of my thoughts, probably causing some of these problems as I do often put them in front of the M, which hurt during this long moving period. Many times during C yesterday I would ask C what is best for the kids and she would steer the conversation back to what is best for me.

I don't know the name of OW. I haven't snooped that far as I know it will devastate me. I need to read more of your advice on affairs, need to learn how to address that and learn if I can forgive that. Right now I'm in the save the M mode, but I know there is that chance that it might not be the right thing for me. However, at the moment, it is the premise I am going to adhere to.