Today I just feel overwhelmed with fear. My h has yet to make his appointment to see the counselor...I'm sure it is because he is at work and probably won't call until next week but I'm just so afraid he won't go!
And yesterday he called out of the blue to ask if the boys would be getting into band....now as part of the divorce decree my h would have to pay half of those extracurricular costs. Since they won't be in band, I'm wondering what he will spend that money on? He only asked if they were joining band, got his answer (no) and hung up. Left me wondering what he's up to, where was he, why is he asking bout that money.
It is so unsettling to be this unsure of what the person you love is up to! It grates on my nerves!
He runs around like he has something to hide...asks questions but doesn't give reasons why he's asking then hangs up. Considering all that he has said and done since we've gone to counseling, I can't put these 2 personalities together! Was he merely telling the MC what they wanted to hear? He can't seem to talk to me...even about mundane things like what he does when he's not working. How can I believe what he said in counseling if he can't even TALK about what he bought at the store!?
My mood is...when will the carpet get yanked out from under my feet? I feel like I'm waiting for the ax to fall.
