Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

I honestly think he still does not grasp just how much I am hurting from his choices and actions. I want to tell him how sometimes it hurts to breathe because I hurt so much, that I walk around with a near constant pain in my chest from missing him so much.

It hurts that I'm never going to be able to experience pregnancy or raising a child with him again. It kills me that he is giving that honor to someone else, not his wife. I want a second child so bad, have for years and he kept promising me one if I accomplished the goals he set. Well, I reached the goals he set but he never even tried to get me pregnant, just came up with some other goal for me to achieve.