I sorry for the funk you find yourself in. I have always loved the Fall, when school started back, leaves changing. We always had a Halloween party for our grandchildren, and this year it will be me alone having the party for them. Thanksgiving, Christmas, I can't think about it.
One thing I can tell you-it's usually Mom's house that is "home" regardless of how your children say it. Sad there are so many children out there for whom Mom's house and Dad's house is the norm. When the going gets tough, it's Mom that means home, and I say that with a very good relationship with my 3 stepsons. We would always be there if they needed us, but first the go "Home" to Mom.
ME: 54 Him: 51 M: 20 years T: 21 years OW/New wife: 36 Sons & Daughters: 7 (ages 24-36) Bomb: March 4, 2010 He Filed: April 28, 2010 I Contested: May 1, 2010 Standing Down: 11/24/10 Divorced : 05/04/2011