It just really sucks not feeling loved by your own spouse. That's not the life I want for myself! Last night I wanted a husband whose shoulder I could cry on saying goodbye to my D and just really miss having someone there for me. If H can't be that, then I'm starting to realize I would rather have someone who can be!
I hear you and feel the same, SunnyD. I am tired of being lonely. Tired of not having that support. That's the hard part - still loving someone, knowing they don't feel the same about you and there is nothing possible you can do about it. Knowing that it just may be the only way you will find love again is to let go. Our 16th anniversary is coming up in a couple of weeks...it makes me so sad, becuase I truly believe that this will be the last one for us.
What I do know, if YOU deserve MORE. You deserve BETTER. You deserve to be happy and fufilled. That is the big question - when do you give up and move on?
Me:36 H:38 Together: 20 years Married: 16 years Kids: 13 & 10 yr. old Discovered affair: 1/10 H denies affair. Refuses to save marraige. Divorce filed: December 2010
