Tomorrow is the first day of school. This will be the start of the 3rd year of school with my children living out of 2 houses. Today my 12 year old son told me that he would be going to "your house" before open house tonight to get his clothes for tomorrow. My D13 told me that she needed to go too to get her clothes. It is all way too normal for them to refer to "mom's house" and "dad's house." How long will it take for me to think this is ok? I do my best to make my house a home, but to my kids it's "mom's house." This is NOT what I want for my kids. I want them to have a HOME. I am trying to make what we have left a family and for the most part think I'm doing pretty well, but it's all so wrong.....hearing talk about "mom's house" really really hurts.
I had to look through old e-mails to see if I could find some bank information that H e-mailed to me quite some time ago. I got stuck reading old e-mails and sucked back in to how wrong this all is. The last "I love you" was in November of 2007.....followed by an e-mail (the first of 3 or 4) asking for divorce in February of 2008. I still wish I could turn back time.
I have learned a lot about myself, I have made improvements and I think I'm improving every day, but......I'm still stuck. I still want another chance.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
