THAT ^^^^^^^^^^is my target, THAT is much closer to where I was when I met W. Need to get back there sooner than later. The hard part is I "feel" she still sees me as the "recent, blob" I became in the last year of the M. So despite feeling good, when I meet with her I sense she is looking through me and seeing the weak me and then I come off that way. Vicious circle.
I appreciate the insight. I "know" this stuff. just gotta BE this way again. Where is that damn button to turn it back on again?
