Was asked to make a new thread so here it is! I guess I can add a link to the old thread.
Basically, not much new for me anyway. Got D moved off to college this past weekend. So excited for her but man is it weird! H did not go with us as I previously stated. He's now decided he is going to go up this coming weekend. SO... at least he is going to do that much for her. Would've been nice to go up as a family since the boys went along, but oh well.
H was decent when we got back last night but didn't have a lot to say. We did text some over the weekend. Mostly about football since we are all big sports fans. It was conversational - friendly - so I guess that's good.
I guess I am coming to a realization that we are settling into this pattern and I don't particularly like it! Getting along fine, but no real progress in the R but no real negativity either. H and I need to have the discussion about his commitment level this week since we did not last week. Now that D is off to college, I'm ready to address the real work that needs to be done. I'm pretty sure H will want to keep it status quo: doing minimum work on the M while me not forcing him out either. Although, I do know the kids will help keep him accountable for his actions.
It just really sucks not feeling loved by your own spouse. That's not the life I want for myself! Last night I wanted a husband whose shoulder I could cry on saying goodbye to my D and just really miss having someone there for me. If H can't be that, then I'm starting to realize I would rather have someone who can be!
