My W is afraid that I would resume my anger outbursts towards her or the boys. It is true I used to be like that after I came back from Iraq. It did put a heavy emotional toll on my W and children.
When we linked up last SAT, that was my W's main concern with the trust issue. How can she be sure that I don't behave that way anymore? I only told her I am not the man I used to be two years ago. But it seems she still harbors mistrust feelings and still feels unsafe to return. That's what she's been saying two years ago. And I get that. It's fully understandable.
I also know she probably overcame some of these mistrust issues since she's allowed me to be with the boys at least six times in the past two years. And she even allowed me to take the boys all the way back to CO last week...Maybe she was testing me...troubleshooting if I would explode again...I never did. Always kept my cool throughout the conversation...
JR
Me:44 WAW:43 Children S13,S11,S7 Married 17 yrs W left JUN 08 W filed JAN 09 D proceedings dismissed AUG 09 W refiles 1 MAR 11