Today however, I have overwhelming sadness. Strangely I am sad for my W. I feel her misery and pain. There is nothing more I want to do right now than give her a hug and tell her that everything is going to be alright.
Why am I feeling sad for her? She is the one who is causing the pain, yet I feel so bad for her. Am I really that close to accept the fact that she could be happy without me? I know that is not true. She will not be happier, I am positive about that.
You are feeling sad because you have started to have empathy for her. You're starting to realize what she is feeling, regardless of what she has done to cause any amount of pain. You're starting to understand that the pain she caused was only done to reflect the amount of pain she felt inside.
You love your W. That's why you're sad - you can't imagine that the person you love most in this world could feel so hurt and pained. It eats you up. You said yourself all you want to do is give her a hug and tell her that everything will be OK. And, you can't do that right now - so instead you just sit there and feel sorry for her and empathize with her pain.
It's natural to feel this way. Just take a step back for a second and understand WHY you feel this way. You're not sad because YOU are sad, you're sad because SHE is sad. There is a huge difference.
----"Et tu, Brute?"---- me:28 W:24 S4 T:6 M:4 EA Exposed: 5/21/10 Bomb: 6/20/10 (Father's Day) NC w/ OM: 7/10/10 W moved out 8/21/10 http://bit.ly/aOrZne - My sitch
