It's just this stupid old feeling of wanting to run and hide; to be by myself and not have to face anyone, to not have to keep being brave or face any challenges, overcome any weaknesses. It's odd. Just when I feel I'm at my weakest, all these situations and people that I've always had a hard time dealing with in my life (but that I've been able to avoid) keep coming up.
I'm finding that (for me anyway) this is like a "post independance syndrome" if you will. For a while there, during the seperation, everything you did was for yourself and didn't really effect anyone else. Kind of got liberating for while, no? So, now that is taken away again and you have to factor someone else back in the equation and I'm finding it a bit frustratiing. At the same time, I'm also finding it frustrating because not being able to do what I want when I want, is 100% anti-GAL'ing. Don't know if that makes any sense.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
