thanks for the advice. you're not beating me up. she does play this cat and mouse game with me waiting for me to screw things up so she can continue to be the dominant one.
it doesn't matter whether i am confident in my decisions or not, because when they turn out wrong, she reprimands me like i'm a kid, puts me under the inquisition, and though i stick to my guns about saying that i still think i did the right thing, i am always able to feel bad because she always seems to be correct. even when i'm right i'm wrong.
she wants me to make decisions, and when i ask for help, she frowns upon me. i ask for help because i don't want to do the wrong thing and have a fight with her.
there's nothing i can do to gain any respect from her. the only thing i can do is work as much as possible, and stay oiut of the house for as ling as possible. i might as well be divorced if that's my philosophy, right?
