SA - Not sure if he broke it off. I am not sure how to find out.
Okay. I need to draft something and will post in a few. Thank you all.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
More developments since my last post. My H wants to know why I have not responded to his question. He says he misses me very much and apologized for his behavior for the last 2 years and his affair, which he says was wrong. He wants to know if it is too late for us. He said he loves me and that through all of this, I have been the most compassionate, understanding and wonderful wife. Well, I know that I didn't always react well and also share the blame for my mistakes.
SA and Lance asked me a question earlier about what I want to do. I have been thinking about this and I value me; while I love my H very much, I cannot and will not allow myself to fall apart again because of the acts of anyone. I lost who I was, that really fun person with a perky attitude. I became dependent on him for my survival - how crazy was that!! I understand now that I never NEEDED my H to survive.
I love who I am; but I don't want to go back to misery. Things would need to change if we want to move forward together. He did ask if there was anything I needed him to do in order for me to accept him back and asked that I return his email (if I wanted to); clearly he wants me to respond. Input friends - your advice is always appreciated.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
I have read so many posts in here when the LBS finally becomes stronger and detached and how they come around....I wonder why that is....you were so devasted a while ago and now you sound so strong and sure of yourself. I can understand how scared you must be, but I have faith in God ask him for what you need to do. You sound wonderful now and that is good to see. I know that HE will direct your paths....what I would do to have my husband say those words to me, even after all these yrs. But I still trust the Lord with all my heart he has brought me out of the deepest darkest time of my life and HE provides all that I need....ask him for the diredtion you need to take....good luck and God bless you....Irma
As strange as this might sound - I envy you the position - to have the choice to bring H back into your life. I agree with everyone else - this is about what YOU want. What are your bondaries - can H comply?
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
