My father died 02/02/2009 and his loss was huge to me. The loss of my wife makes me feel much worse. I know I can not blame myself but doing nothing but sit and wait is very hard to do. I feel numb and glad I am off this week because I dont think I can function much this week.The hardest thing for me is to let go of her and my emotions for her. Right now all I want to do is hug her but the only thing I will hug is my pillow. The thing that is amazing is that my wife thinks she is entitled to spousal support when she did me wrong. Its all about money now and what more she can get from me. I gave her my life and I helped both our families. I never asked for anything in return. I only gave unconditional love and all I get is hate and resentment. My wife's own family think she is screwed up. I do appreciate this site and I did read the threads from cadet. Bobby O
