I know that I will likely set myself up for hurt again....that is just the kind of person I am. I have always been determined and I am always willing to do anything to make it work. So I know that eventually I will put myself out there and run the risk of going through the same thing again. I have hope for this future and I life that I always thought I would have. I don't think I will ever let go of that hope and it is that hope that drives me forward everyday. I have always believed that I am a very negative person and I actually allowed my H to convince me of how negative I am but if there is only one thing that i could take away from all that has happened...
I realize that i am not negative. Yes I do get stressed about life and i do worry about my business and tend to over react about things but I am not negative. In fact through all that has happened with my marriage I have always remained as positive as possible. The only negative person in the sit. is my H!
I started to believe that I was a downer b/c my H had convinced me of this but I know that i am not. I get passionate about things and yes sometimes things aren't all roses and fairy princesses but I am a good person and I do have so much to offer to someone out there that is deserving of me!
He is the loser and one day I hope that he realizes it...i guess this will be my revenge.
M=42 H=51 Common-law 6yr Children: 11yr old daughter (previous marrIage) 6yr old son Bomb dropped January 2013
