My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

OK, so I had appointment. It was actually fairly interesting because it was the first time that I wasn't really "in crisis" when seeing him.

So - he indicated that it's not so much that he didn't expect us to move towards divorce given everything that H has done - but he also said he always thought of us as the couple who might divorce but never really separate. Everything that H is doing is catching him off guard also. I broke down at the end of the session explaining that I felt stuck and that the grief of feeling so disposable and so un-valuable to H was overwhelming me. He was silent for a long time and I said "what?" and he said - I have been sitting here trying to find words of comfort and I can't find them.

So where am I now? Needing to let go - completely let go. Counselor agreed that H has focused all blame on me.

I am stuck in denial and sorrow. I need to move on through the process.