I have read so many posts in here when the LBS finally becomes stronger and detached and how they come around....I wonder why that is....you were so devasted a while ago and now you sound so strong and sure of yourself. I can understand how scared you must be, but I have faith in God ask him for what you need to do. You sound wonderful now and that is good to see. I know that HE will direct your paths....what I would do to have my husband say those words to me, even after all these yrs. But I still trust the Lord with all my heart he has brought me out of the deepest darkest time of my life and HE provides all that I need....ask him for the diredtion you need to take....good luck and God bless you....Irma