More developments since my last post. My H wants to know why I have not responded to his question. He says he misses me very much and apologized for his behavior for the last 2 years and his affair, which he says was wrong. He wants to know if it is too late for us. He said he loves me and that through all of this, I have been the most compassionate, understanding and wonderful wife. Well, I know that I didn't always react well and also share the blame for my mistakes.
SA and Lance asked me a question earlier about what I want to do. I have been thinking about this and I value me; while I love my H very much, I cannot and will not allow myself to fall apart again because of the acts of anyone. I lost who I was, that really fun person with a perky attitude. I became dependent on him for my survival - how crazy was that!! I understand now that I never NEEDED my H to survive.
I love who I am; but I don't want to go back to misery. Things would need to change if we want to move forward together. He did ask if there was anything I needed him to do in order for me to accept him back and asked that I return his email (if I wanted to); clearly he wants me to respond. Input friends - your advice is always appreciated.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
