Karen, it's almost funny -- I look back now to the early part of the separation and recall how xW had tried so hard to assert that it was I who had always tried to control her... and that I was the one who was cold-hearted and selfish. I can be candid enough to recognize that we both had our selfish tendencies, but never did I harbor any malice towards during the time of our M, at no time did I wish her ill. Quite the opposite.
I was worried about the C, and am still a little reticent about employing her services given the consultation three years ago. xW had lied to her in front of me, putting on crocodile tars and saying that S9's problems stemmed entirely from how I neglected his mother. At the time I was trying to DB my W, trying to salvage the M, so I failed to correct xW's assertions properly. As such I hav worried that we left the C with the wrong impression, a fabrication constructed by xW and that I failed to counteract, tainting the C's view of our situation. When the C at the time was already agreeing with the then W's conclusion that the D was a foregone conclusion, predicated on xW's false tears, I decided I wasn't all that confident in the C's ability to read the situation correctly.
But apparently she's gained a little more knowledge in that time. I am willing to see how it turns out this time, three years later, for S5.
