I've been running through all of what was said last night. There were a lot of questions about why I think our R should continue. Why I don't want to leave. Why I think there I a chance. Why I did not take it seriously last time. According to W she had given me an opportunity.
I am glad I did not answer any of it last night.
This morning she called me and let me know about vet's test results for one of our dogs. She could have waited until we both got home. She could have texted. But she called. It was positive news. She wanted to share.
So now I'm thinking just to go all the way and tell her what I think. That I don't want this R any more either but that I want a new fresh R with no baggage from past. That I have learned alot lately and won't make any more mistakes. At the same time I'm ready to move out also.
I don't think I have a choice. I need to end this status quo. She may answer to me or not. She will have a whole next week to think while on a vacation.
