No longer holding on to what I know is gone.

[NNP1965]

It may be a little premature moving to this forum as I have not officially filed yet, but that is just a formality once I get an appt with my attorney.

H came home yesterday to get the boys to take them for the week. I was under the impression we were going to have a conversation about moving forward with the divorce. I had all my thoughts put together and was ready to tell him what we needed to do money wise. NOPE, I WAS WRONG! He still wants us to "stay married" so I can take care of everything but he wants to "move on with his personal life"... I said what the heck does that mean, why are you beating around the bush? So then he says he has someone he wants to start dating (although come to find out they have been involved for SEVERAL months)!!! He can't even tell the truth when he is trying to.

UGH anyway this is another person that he worked with here... she is about 30 (he is 48) I think and has a 5 year old son... and she has left her husband for my H! So far in this mess 3 marriages (that I know of) have been destroyed by H's cheating. Makes me want to throw up!

I told him to get our property up for sale and sell the classic car that is taking up space in my garage or I will sell it for parts! and he is not welcome in my home anymore! I am going to file for divorce and get this done ASAP!!!! I know I have hung on too long, but I am ready now and there will be no stopping me.

I am ready to step out in faith and file. Let the chips fall... I know there has to be a better life waiting for my boys and I.