I want to be part of the group...

[Jstar]

nope no phone, no car, i suck internet from a neighbor. i can afford $400/mnth just paying for my mortgage utilities barely get food.

i'm trying to change some things around but it takes time and it still won't be enough to take both kdis to daycare.

h lives with mil, she will allow anyone in her home, that's her meal ticket.

i put out expectations for him to follow, like get healthcare, get insurance on his truck to transport kids, but he rather go out dancing clubbing drinking trips to vegas adn throw $160 amonth at me and claim he is broke.

priorities. i had to ask him to watch the kids, he declined, my bil called him and told him 4 times to watch them that the kids needed him so i could go to work, all h said to bil was i don't want to see jstar.

so here it is the 4th day of school i could not go t work and tuesday will be approaching soon.

i mean ive even thought ok if i resign take my retirement out pay to get some necessary things fixed on house like holes in walls and doors due to h, watch kids in my home...till i can afford to go back to work with them ins chool, i cuold get a car.

i'm screwed every which way i go. i have scoured asked everyone at my work- a public school, teh lunch ladies, parent liason. i have one girl single mom of 3 yr old who answered my ad for live in nanny. i don't know her and don't even know if it would work out.

h keeps claiming that he loves these kids. am i not seeing something here? you gotta be kidding me.?