i was livid when i found out about the bag.

a therapist usually tells an abused wife to leave a packed bag in her car in case her husband attacks her.

this made me look like i was an abuser. i never laid a finger on anybody. i didn't create a stressful situation for anybody. when he wanted space, i gave him space. i gave him everything he wanted .. but what? because i was fighting for 50/50, it was making him all stressed out that he thought he was going to have a heart attack? and that made me an 'abuser'?!

he created it all himself .. and he has a packed bag in his car?!

i was afraid to go home because i didn't know what personality my h was taking on .. and nobody advised me to keep a packed bag in my car.

sigh .. it's been 6 months .. i can't believe it still gets me riled up.